small victorys

so I am down 2 shirt sizes and at least 2 pant sizes but I am hitting the problem that all those that have alot of weight to lose run into I still look fat I cant wait for like the 60 or 70 lbs loss cause then it will show and i will feel like I have accomplished more...

ok im not right

cause from last week that would be 5 lbs that I lost woohoo

24 hour fitness

So I joined I am a member of a super sport club what makes it so freakin cool I don't get it seems like a regular club to me but what ever I worked out last night and it was good. and as usual I weighed myself I didn't post it cause I was hanging out with a friend and didn't get home till almost 2 am which made for a short night sleep. but I lost another 3 lbs I am now at 273 or 272 I will weight myself again tonight cause I was so tired I cant totally remember.

my pedometer

OK the thing pissed me off today I wore it my entire shift and when i got home it said I only walked 87 steps I know it walked more then that arg

24 hour fitness

a good friend responded to my request to work out and he is going to look into getting me a guest membership to 24 hour fitness which is cool and he wants to do zumba with me woohoo

Blog

When I started this I was blogging everyday and most of the time multiple times a day. but I have been not keeping up I enjoy blogging but I think I'm just to tired as of late I really need to work on that.
But updates today is Wed which is weigh in day 278 so I have just over 100 lbs to lose to get to my goal its slow going but you know what they say slow and steady wins the race.

trying to figure out this working out thing

I think its osteoarthritis in my right ankle which sucks so I am going to have to figure out cardio i can do at home that wont screw it up and what sucks is my ankle wont stop hurting now with out walking on it how am I going to lose all this weight if I cant really excercise much

ankle pain

so my ankle has been hurting a lot lately I went to the er I have tendonitis in my ankle so no more long walks and I guess that means I cant do zumba either

ugg

Well I said it before, I wasn't sure how this week would turn out the new job I have been tired all the time so i wasn't exercising like I was before but I got a pedometer and some other things to help out I am hoping that will turn it around for me so that next week the scale will not show zero again it will show like a 10 or something like that

I have been eating right

but havn't been feeling excercising so I have kind of slowed down I am hoping it didn't affect me to much

Day off

I have to work out all day today cause I hurt so bad I couldn't move the after working the past two days, so I will stretch and work out alot today.

after work

so I got off work and worked out for a little bit and then weighed myself 284 I'm down 4 more pounds woohoo

first day at work

I started at walmart yesterday it was cool, but I hadn't realized how much my lack of sleep had taken out of me until I went down to my room about about 7 and fell asleep till 1 this morning then went back to sleep at about 230 and woke back up at 10 am this morning so I didn't weight my self cause I have to work today I will do that when I get home and post it for all to see

flip flop

After a not so good day with the bad second interview at dish right after a stellar first interview, I don't feel like eating or working out but the veins are showing on my arm am seeing some muscle through the fat on my arms so I am wanting to work out cause it is starting to show so I will work out and eat since I am suppose to. I still have alot of the roasted veggies left but I'm getting over them so I'm just going to make some chicken with a little cheese melted over it for dinner woohoo lol

Recipies

I was looking through and atkins cookbook and they were showing fritattas I thought why not
so I took some veggies that I had roasted (yellow and green zuchini,spinach,tomatoes,and green beans,mushrooms) with some sausage and made a scramble threw a little cheese on top I calculated it out and its like 4 net carbs I had one low carb tortilla 7 net carbs and made a burrito 12 net carbs and that was if I ate the full portion I am so full now that I cant eat another bite picture of the food to follow

food intake

I just realized  have been horrible I was suppose to be giving a food intake but I think that since my focus changed from calorie content to carb content it have just not been thinking about it so I will start adding the totall daily carbs and if any one wants a list of foods i eat just email me if you want it

work

My new job will be a challange I will be working at a pizza place so it will be difficult usually to lose weight but it will be nice to get food at a discount for food for my family I hope to continue lose weight

working out

I love to work out. it just sucks cause the weather has been so crappy around her my motivation is going down hill but still I keep up with it 20 min twice a day on my total gym

Low-carb cookbooks

I love low-carb eating and cooking it tastes good and I feel better eating that way my problem is that the cookbooks usually have little to no pictures. so this is what I am going to do I am going to start my Low-carb cooking and I am going to take pictures of my food no I am not a food stylist but we eat with our eyes so my food looks good maybe you might want to try a recipe so enjoy

that time of week again

OK I was nervous about weighing in cause last week I lost nothing. I lost 4 lbs woohoo its small but if I put the 2 weeks together I am right on track for my weight loss goal. I spent like 4 hours at the library today trying to get on the Internet and reading a lot of low carb cookbooks and trying to visit the Atkins web site to no avail cause the Internet was down at the library. bummer but we cant have it all. I did get a job offer today which makes it less likely that I will have to go to the place I was working at when I started this blog.

Computer Fixed

I got my laptop fixed woohoo I can use it again. I don't have to wait to use another computer in the house.
I am not sure what was happening with my anti-depressants, but they turned me into a real asshole and they made it so that I didn't want to do anything on Thursday I had to force myself to work out and Friday I just fell asleep. I haven't taken them in two days and I am starting to feel more and more like myself again I worked out double tonight cause I missed yesterday, but I was still overly well bitchy. I am hoping that I will as the time goes on become less and less of an asshole mainly to my family. I am very tired of not having a bullshit meter at all cause with out it I have trouble dealing with people in public. as for good things besides working out today I went and saw Iron Man 2 in IMAX it was amazing had to be the best movie I have seen in a long while there was also a trailer for the new tron I cant wait to see that movie.

I also have been eating the Atkins bars they're the best ones I can find that are low carb and low calories and there very tasty.

Anit-depressants

OK so I am going to have to talk to my Dr cause she placed me on an anti-depressant and I have lost all motivation to do anything at all as well I'm sleeping all the time so I need to stop taking them cause I just don't want to do anything right now. so I am not working out at much and I am not taking advantage of my free week at 24 hour fitness

bummed

Ok well start with the bright side I didn't gain any weight the bummer is a didn't lose anymore saddened a bit I guess I will just have to ramp up the exercises

Laptop Down

so I thought I would have a coronary when I went for a walk the other night and dropped my phone which is fine. How ever I feel as though I am blind deaf and mute since my laptop took a dive last night I opened an email and well there it went, So since I only had vista on there and we have 7 to install I decided I would install 7 and just not save any files just start fresh How ever my laptop had different ideas and everything is still on there accept my ability to get on the Internet. I guess it will put more to my working out like when that ass was not very thoughtful and I brought the total gym into my room. I have told many people I love to work out I always have but since I hadn't been doing much more then walking, which I had to cut a little short cause I tweaked my ankle dancing the other night, so I have been picking up the slack and I am so sore in a good way. makes me want to work out more so I can start to see results. like when your arm veins start to pop out that's so cool . I know I'm silly but hey that's life.

Looking forward to being able to work out while I am watching the biggest loser tomorrow as well I am looking forward to starting my gym membership tomorrow. This fat man is a big fan of 24 hour fitness.

Control

I have heard people talk about it often, that when you let someone else hurt your feelings you are giving them control. I am not denying that giving someone else control is bad, but when you are trying to work over your outside cause you have spent your entire life being judged for the way you look. I guess I just thought that people might be supportive of a journey like that, but still people are judgemental. I would like to think about last night when I went out and flirted and got some digits and kissed a few people. and be able to smile because when I want to actually have confidence then well I over come those judgements. But when someone tells you that your to fat it hurts. No i didn't like cry when I was in high school because of people calling me fat I didn't know who I was then there was no reason to cry. but now I do cause I am a good person and I am worthy of being loved no matter what my outside appearance is I am changing what I look like for me. Not those fucked up bitches and assholes that will judge someone for just shallow reasons. I am still working on my weight but now more then ever I wish that I could be a contestant on the biggest loser cause while your there all you have is support and support devoid of judgement is what I need, but I do fear that there is no place I will be able to get that in the real world.....

portion size

Ok since before now I was only eating like once a day or once every other day I don't think I ever noticed how big portions have gotten damn I can't eat all in one sitting which is good cause it if I did I would have ruined all my calories for the day.  but seriously they are like huge way to big no wonder America is so fat as a country if people believe that they need to finish there food they eat to much at each sitting when they go out. if I were eating out like that 3 times a day i would never lose weight ever.

My hero

So I figure since my idea was borrowed from a movie that was a true story about Julia Child and Julie Powell I would see if movie magic is real and if the blog tool that was used where it showed how many days left and how many recipes she had left to make was real so i went to the original blog
http://blogsalon.com/000139/
but alas that blog is closed and if I hoped I could see the tool I was wrong
but she has a current blog
http://juliepowell.blogspot.com
and here of all places and she is currently posting
so I went and left a comment now its just waiting and praying that she will reply with the answer to my widget crisis

intake

Non-alcohol 200 calories
Breakfast 550 calories
Dinner 800 calories
Vodka Cranberry Priceless

Ok pissed off fat man

Why does everyone think that cause your fat the only way that can happen is if you eat to much. Heres the deal kids with me I need to increase how much I am eating to get to the correct calories, when you don't eat enough your body goes into starvation mode like myself so what happens is your body starts storeing everything you eat as fat, a secondary problem that comes with not eating enough is you lose energy and motivation to move around which is what your body wants to do. I am sick and tired of people mainly my friends assuming im a fat ass cause I eat to much.

I am fat cause I am not hungry ever never havn't been for years so I just don't eat right now I think I am at like 1100 calories for today and thats me eating till i felt like I was going to barf, I usually only eat like every other day, with me not being hungry and not eating I have lost motivation to move and become really lazy right not the hardest things for me are going to be starting to move, and eating enough caloried not cutting them down.

hopefully this might clear some things up for you guys. I might be fat but honestly guys I know alot about being fat and how not to be I have studied kinesiology and diet the body's relationship with food.

So my goal is to lose weight yes but to do so I am going to have to start moving more alot more then I currently am and eating more, more often and more calories the first adjustment will be to eat more calories even though I am watching the intake so I am eating the correct things then I will make it so that I will be eating less and less carbs and sup more protein.

Ok so I'm getting off my soap box now I love you guys

Blog update

Ok so since I have decided I will use this as my weight loss aid here's the embarrassing part where I come clean. As you all know my goal weight is 175 which I sad earlier that meant a lost of 120 so here's the math when I made the decision I weighed my self at 299 as of yesterday afternoon I was at 292 that is 7lbs so far that leaves 117 lbs to lose and I will give myself 52 weeks in which to lose it. I will be posting updates as to my diet and exercise daily, including my calorie intake since my goal is 175 my intake daily I am wanting to be 1500 calories a day and I am wanting it to be more protein then carbs. As for the exercise I'm really sedentary right now so I will start out at 20 min a day getting my heart rate to the fat burning range for that entire time. Then Increase the time as I go. Now the last part of it the proof of concept, I have decided that I will be taking that part from biggest loser on Friday of every week I will weigh myself in before bed that will give me a lose for week I will be posting the weight at that point the loss if any and my BMI now to be healthy my BMI needs to be at 24 or below right now my calculated BMI is 40.9. Ok guys wish me luck and keep be going . Oh yeah also on a monthly biases I will be taking new Photos so that you all can see the progress It will help me as well so I can for sure see that there is a change cause really in the moment being there I can't tell.
well any questions or any helpful hints let me know.

Starting Temp Job

Hey so it was windy yesterday but I still enjoyed my walk as well as catching up with an old friend I hadn't spoken with in a while. yeah facebook. So I am starting on a temp job today at the Denver convention center, its a desk job so I will see what I can do to exercises while I am there.

addiction

so I realized that I have an addiction to the Internet omg I set up a blog and I have to watch it and make it grow and whatever I have gone to like every site I can think of to chat with people and try and bring people to my blog. Is it working I don't know yet cause it looks like 4 people are following me. the problem is all this time trying to get people to come to my blog is distracting me from my goal thus I am just sitting in front of a computer to I need to get off my ass and walk since I am unemployed and thus have no money to get a gym membership.
so I'm out

pfpchallange.com

so I just pledged my first 50 lbs of weight loss to the pound for pound challange why just the first 50 lbs because the allow a max of 50 damn it I guess I will have to go back in 6 months

Tools

So I watched the movie "Julie & Julia" and that kind of gave me the Idea for doing a weight loss blog. Mainly the tool she had used where she would enter the count down the number of days as well as the number of recipes. Since I have decided I am going to do this my time frame will be 1 year to lose 120 lbs I think it is safe time frame to lose the weight as well make it so I don't have that nasty flappy skin everywhere.
     So I need to find that tool as well at the bottom of all my updates I am thinking I want a calorie counter almost like an excel spread sheet where I enter the different items and it totals the calories and the carbs for me. I am also going to go to the biggest loser site so I can sign up for the pound for pound challenge please wish me luck.
If you read this and want to help go to the biggestloserclub.com they have helpful links and tools.

Crazy

Ok so I have spent all night up which is usual for me. I am trying to look for work, but might have a few leads that I am not sure I want. Honestly I wish there was a way I could make money with out having to deal with others B.S.

I am thinking I might be able to use this blog as a weight loss blog. I just have to figure out the set parameters like the amount of weight loss in a specific time frame so I have something to measure by. My goal is 175, I know what diet I am going to do and have an idea on the exercises, now I just need a good time frame comment me with ideas

My first post

I have been a member of livejournal, myspace, facebook and well… a lot of the fads of the moment, but most have faded into the background. So… I figured why not do something I can control -not really a social networking site but more of a me site. I’ve told people I want to start a weight loss blog, but I'm not sure if I'm that brave yet. So I'm starting here, and the book was right… reading this post… it sucks. I was like, “I know he is dumb, I have done those other things, so I totally know how to do this.” Although, (to be honest) I have been waiting for like 3 weeks to set this up, procrastinating while pretending I was waiting for inspiration to strike. I have known how I want this to look and what I want to say, but my back bone hasn't fully descended yet.




I told my friend Shira, who suggested that I set up a weight loss blog, (which I don't intend this to be but, I will cause I promised) but all in time. It's also been suggested that I would do well on the biggest loser, which would be totally awesome to go on, but I am too afraid to fulfill the application requirements of taking a home video.



I have read this and it doesn't seem complete but I don't know what else to write. This is more difficult than I thought… carrying on a one sided dialogue. I guess all that is left is to spell check and post! I hope this is not too wordy… hell, I don't care if it is as long as it gets read. Off to other shiny objects and pretty baubles lol.



In case you’re wondering, like I was when I read the preview, what the hell book is he talking about??? It’s called "Create your own Blog 6 easy projects to start blogging like a Pro" By Tris Hussey